Wanted to share where I am right now...

Sun Jul 24, 2011 6:46 pm by Earth_Girl

Hi everyone, I just wanted to take a moment and share where I am right now, get some feedback.

Today is the second day of my vacation, I don't have to work for the rest of this month, I took some time off for reflection and to figure out my next move. I go back to work Aug. 1st, just in time to see what those idiots in Washington are going to do about the deficit. But it's ok...I think I'm starting to accept that I really have no control over collapse. It could happen Aug. 3rd, and there's nothing I can do. Bottom line: I'm not ready, but I guess that's ok. I have a little bit of money, and can prob. get a few gallons of extra water and some food staples to last maybe a week or two...but that's about it. That's all I can do, and if it's not enough, well...take it day by day I suppose.

Car needs some work done, $300 at least (maybe $400, which is two weeks pay), new brakes and rotors, etc. to pass inspection. If I thought it was truly feasible, I'd try to get rid of it and buy more food and water, quit my job, and just hunker down. But in reality I can't do that just yet. I have a few tools, knives, some odds and ends, but no other preps. No bug-out spot. Living with my mom for now, but we could get kicked out if things collapsed (we're renting) and we'd be camping out of tents. I'd like to find a better spot and relocate, but don't have the means to do so at this juncture.

It is what it is, I suppose. I've stopped worrying really. At this point, all I want, is to find someone to love, to hold, someone to laugh at my stupid jokes, and just share whatever time we have left. That would be a small saving grace for my spirit in a world that's driving at warp speed into hell. I know that collapse is inevitable, and I've tried living as best as I can up until now. Hopefully, that's enough.

Sun Jul 24, 2011 7:14 pm by roccman

EG - don't dispair - If you find yourself in the great sonoran desert - look me up -

in our small cyber cafe - there are those that know how to contact each other.

know that we are in this together -

Sun Jul 24, 2011 7:14 pm by EWHM

Earth Girl,
You are quite correct that you have zero control over the timing of the collapse. Neither do I or most likely anyone who posts on this board. All any of us can do with any reasonable probability of success is to make preparation to save some small fraction of what is important to us. You've accepted reality, which puts you in a better situation insofar as surviving that most of the population, which will have to go through that painful process under more intense circumstances.

Your course of action---to find someone to love you, is probably a prudent one historically honestly, for when things fall apart and the center can not hold. Your family and, in particular, your future husband and HIS family are your most powerful survival assets. This is a drum I've beaten quite a few times here before...there is not good substitute for family----few ties actually bind as effectively in times of crisis as those of blood. Keep your chin up and remember that the universe doesn't specifically hate you in particular.

Sun Jul 24, 2011 7:57 pm by Earth_Girl

roccman wrote:EG - don't dispair - If you find yourself in the great sonoran desert - look me up -

in our small cyber cafe - there are those that know how to contact each other.

know that we are in this together -

Don't worry Rocc, I am not in despair, I am just reflecting, now that I have a few days to do so without the mindless droll of work.

EWHM wrote:Earth Girl,
You are quite correct that you have zero control over the timing of the collapse. Neither do I or most likely anyone who posts on this board. All any of us can do with any reasonable probability of success is to make preparation to save some small fraction of what is important to us. You've accepted reality, which puts you in a better situation insofar as surviving that most of the population, which will have to go through that painful process under more intense circumstances.

Your course of action---to find someone to love you, is probably a prudent one historically honestly, for when things fall apart and the center can not hold. Your family and, in particular, your future husband and HIS family are your most powerful survival assets. This is a drum I've beaten quite a few times here before...there is not good substitute for family----few ties actually bind as effectively in times of crisis as those of blood. Keep your chin up and remember that the universe doesn't specifically hate you in particular.

EWHM, no offense, but I find the husband part quite presumptuous. I'm a lesbian. If anything, my future WIFE will be my most powerful asset, if I ever find her. :lol:

It's difficult finding a partner that really sees what's going on in this world, let alone one that understands you and loves you deeply on that spiritual/emotional level. I haven't decided if being gay will be a bad thing post-collapse, but if anything, my partner and I would make two really kick-ass MZB's :mrgreen:

I'm keeping my chin up as best as I can, but in regards to family...I'm not sure if mine will be a hindrance or a blessing. Parents are so deep in the old paradigm that it's mind boggling; one brother wants to be a psychologist; the other is a mechanic, but he's a good hunter/outdoorsman. Overall, they're too set in BAU, and I think the coming storm will be too much for them. My cousin gets it. She and I will be alright.

Sun Jul 24, 2011 8:25 pm by roccman

Anyone that has not seen the "esoteric agenda" should...

very powerful

specifically - parts 12 and 13 speak to the oneness of everything...

Sun Jul 24, 2011 10:26 pm by allissun

Earth_Girl wrote:...If anything, my future WIFE will be my most powerful asset, if I ever find her. It's difficult finding a partner that really sees what's going on in this world, let alone one that understands you and loves you deeply on that spiritual/emotional level. I haven't decided if being gay will be a bad thing post-collapse, but if anything, my partner and I would make two really kick-ass MZB's

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Hi Earth_Girl! I think you are right in your thinking that having a partner, a wife, girlfriend, lover, doom-soul-mate, will most definitely be a most important asset in the future. A really good partner who "understands you and loves you deeply on that spiritual/emotional level", as you mention, is a blessing and a gift, and I fully believe that this should be the highest spiritual goal, after caring for any children in your path, and just plain surviving for survival's sake is taken care of. I suppose there are some people here in this forum... i am not sure why, but i am suspecting mostly the older (than good 'ole me... i am 44) members kind of have that one worked out in their meatspace family lives. Maybe i am wrong.

All i can say, and i say this from a heartfelt-supported position, that for me, when the shit goes down... and when i know that the shit is REALLY GOIN DOWN BIGTIME, I want to be with that person who I know that I would not hesitate to die for, because I know that I would have a very bleak existence should I survive his or her (or their) death. In the end, and this might be my way to cope with the ultimate story of life and death, I would choose to be with someone who I could trust and relax with and feel comfortable with, and with whom i would feel consoled to spend my final physical hours in this world.

I don't think being gay (which is taboo, in some ways, i guess), or being a doomer (which is taboo, in some ways, i guess), or wanting to leave a clueless marriage partner to make space for a real connection (which is taboo, i guess), will necessarily be a problem to consider as such. We all have so very much work to do, and I would rather not spend too much time considering living in an old paradigm. I suspect that what is now taboo, will be the new norm in the future.

love highest,

all-is-sun

Sun Jul 24, 2011 10:57 pm by allissun

roccman wrote:Anyone that has not seen the "esoteric agenda" should...

very powerful

specifically - parts 12 and 13 speak to the oneness of everything...

thanks for that video roccman... just watched it. the fibonacci... golden mean godlen ( :lol:

) ....slip intended, rectangle, is the inspiration and, not only that, the foundation upon which i built my senior student project in environmental/interior/architectural design thesis, and then further, a philosophy of seeing the world, and then further, a connect to my production of charcoal (GIANT) drawings of shells found on the beach...

oh, god, this is heaven to me...

Sun Jul 24, 2011 11:11 pm by Earth_Girl

allissun wrote:... I want to be with that person who I know that I would not hesitate to die for, because I know that I would have a very bleak existence should I survive his or her (or their) death. In the end, and this might be my way to cope with the ultimate story of life and death, I would choose to be with someone who I could trust and relax with and feel comfortable with, and with whom i would feel consoled to spend my final physical hours in this world.

This is the epitome of what I was getting at. Thanks Ali. :mrgreen:

And I'm all for tearing down old paradigm's and beginning anew.

Sun Jul 24, 2011 11:29 pm by rbrgs

Why are all the good doomer women either married or gay?

Sun Jul 24, 2011 11:34 pm by allissun

rbrgs wrote:Why are all the good doomer women either married or gay?

rbrgs. you need to listen more attentively, my dear.

love highest,

all - is - sun

Your day will come, rbrgs, believe it, big man kitty-kat with the AK-47... How sexy is that?

Well i chose this song for the words in the song... YO DAY WIll COME, l'il kitty :mrgreen:

p.s. thank you for the incredible compliment... i love you, man, but yes, i am spoken for :mrgreen:

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